The boy of my dreams

Been invited on a date with the boy of my dreams. Well, not exactly. I’ve had an email from church saying I’ve been specially chosen to go to a meeting tonight to talk about contemporary worship along with a guy I just fancy the pants off. He’s a really good singer and musician and he is the hottest thing on two legs and I sooo lurve him. I will be really disappointed if he doesn’t show. Over the summer I’ve seen him a couple of times without his shirt and he is totally buff. I also went round to his house once and he was laid on the sofa in a dressing gown and I coudln’t keep my eyes off his tanned hairy legs. It fell open so I saw his nipples but so far I’ve not seen what he keeps hidden in his pants, except for the one occasion in church when he pulled his jeans down and showed his pants which was a heart stopping moment. If only I could get him to show me the only bit of his body I havnt seen I could die happy. I shall keep you up dated.

Something else I havent done for a few days

Had a really good holiday. We stayed in a hotel near Llandudno and had a family room with two single beds and two bunk beds. Mum had one of the singles I had the other although they were so close together it was like a double. I’ve had to go all week without having a wank. Had a little play with it once or twice when she’s been asleep but didn’t want to risk getting caught in the bathroom and I couldn’t do it in bed. Made up for lost time last night but it wasn’t at all sexy and didn’t feel all that great. Clocked this great looking guy yesterday just before we set off back home. Actually it was his package I noticed more than anything but he had a really nice face too. Only saw him as he walked past. We were going the other way but boy was he big. Seen a few other tasty hunks. We went to a place called the Fun Centre, it’s a play area but with massive slides, scramble nets and such. It was dead busy and really hot. Everyone was really sweaty and there were these two older lads 18-20 and one of them had his shirt off which was just the hottest thing. Got a good look at his happy trail. There was another guy about my age and he was hot too. Kept lifting his t-shirt to wipe off the sweat and he had such a toned bod. There was a dark maze where you can’t see anything and I just wished I could have gone in there and accidentally bumped into him but he stayed on the climbing equipment. We went on a train up Snowdon and I had to sit next to this lad all the way up and back. He wasn’t that hot but when we got to the top there were these guys who had all trekked up and they were just so yummy. Could see they were looking at us thinking wusses because we’d gone up by train and they’d climbed all the way up. It was really windy and wet at the top and they’d all got the proper gear on and there’s me in jeans and hooded sweatshirt. They were all sat around in the visitor centre and they’d taken off most of their outdoor gear so they had just t-shirts on and looked really tasty. Watched one or two as they were getting dressed ready to go back out. There were loads of them so I think they were probably DofE or something. Mum sez next time we go we’re going to climb it. I doubt we will, we don’t have all the right gear and my bro would be whining about having a stitch before we’d gone ten minutes. Wales was good. Loads of things to do although I think it’s cost a lot of kerching. My mum got really cross with my sister when she ordered things in cafes and then didn’t eat or drink them. Came back last night and got stuck for ages on the motorway. Mum got really stressed especially when it started to pour down and the lorries were making it hard to see. Ended up stopping for MacD at 7 and eating it on the move driving up the M6.

Too much information

What is the matter with me? Just come back from our holiday in Wales. Did you miss me? Sorry if this is a little bit graphic but to I haven’t been able to take a dump the last four days. I’m getting really concerned. How long can you go without, does anyone know? Unbelievably this time last week I had just the opposite problem. We had a Chinese takeaway a week last Sunday and I won’t go into detail but on the Monday morning my stomach was like the inside of a washing machine. I thought it wouldn’t last more than a day but I was still feeling off colour until the Wednesday. Thursday morning complete change, I can’t go at all. Again I thought it would get right by itself but by Saturday I was getting really worried. I’ve tried but can’t. We went out for a meal on Saturday night and I felt really full afterwards. Went to bed thinking I might be dead by morning or wake up in pain but no I’m still here. It’s not as though I’ve not been eating. Quite the opposite, I’ve had loads to eat whilst we’ve been away, but where’s it going if it’s not coming out? Don’t want to tell my mum. I’ve thought about it, but one morning at breakfast my bro disappeared to the toilet and then said he had to go again shortly afterwards adding I only did a wee the first time. My mum said Too much information. I did tell her about my stomach being funny last week. I thought perhaps it was because I wasn’t eating the sort of stuff we usually have. The hotel only did white toast for breakfast an we usually have wholemeal. Then there was the fact that the toilet in our hotel room was just off the bedroom and didn’t have a lock on the door. I tried going when we were out but saw the way my mum was looking at me when I got back, like she was thinking you’ve been a long time, what’ve you been doing. I’ve tried drinking lots of water, eating loads of veg but nothing. How long have I got before I die or explode? Not much of a postcard from Wales I know but I had to share this with you before I tell you about our holiday. What do you think I should do?

Two penises in one afternoon

Wasn't sure if I dare give this post this title of if I could get into trouble for it. Been back home, my old home. Even went to look at our old house. We visited some of our old friends from church. Their son is the same age as me. Only found out we were going on Wednesday morning and couldn’t get hold of most of my mates to meet up with them. We stayed in a Travel lodge, mum and sis shared the big double bed and me and my bro were on the sofa bed. Managed to get hold of my best mate yesterday and me him and Alex from church went up to the lake. Didn’t have any swimmers so we all swam in our boxers. Lots of nice bods to look at. There’s a boat that runs trips and noticed one lad when he was getting off was only wearing a pair of gray briefs. Saw him again when he was walking by the lake. He was a dream but obviously I couldn’t stare. There were a cople of other groups of young lads swimming near by. Funniest were these two and one had gone in with jogging bottoms on. He decided to take them off whilst he was in the water. Not skinny dipping he still had on a pair of shorts but they must’ve gone see through because the younger lad shouts back to the olds on the side, ‘he won’t get out because he doesn’t want everyone to see his small penis’. Which I thought was really funny, especially as this dude was only about 11, then his mate got cross with him for shouting this infront of everyone, so next he shouts, ‘no, because he’s got a really big penis’. Couldn’t believe he’d shouted penis out loud twice. It was hilarious. Had an embarrassing moment when I flashed. The bottom button on my boxers came open and when I looked down it was showing. Alex and Graeme got to see it all when I took them off to put my jeans back on. Graeme put his on over his undies even thought they were soaked. He’s not yet 12 so maybe he didn’t want to show infront of us older guys. Been really good fun catching up with them and hearing all their news and seeing my old home town. Really miss everyone but it’s good where we are now too. Came back to an inbox full of replies to my earlier posts. Thanks guys for your responses, especially Steevo and keliss.
Gonna have to start getting ready for back to school. My bro’s got all his uniform. He looks so funny cos he’s a little guy in big school clothes. He hates them. First time hes had to wear a shirt and tie. He’s got footy boots which is funny because he hates footy. He’s not gonna like rugby either. He doesn’t do sport. D’ya think he’s gay too?

Going to Hell

Not gone away, mum hasn’t been able to book anywhere at such short notice. Went to Bible study last night and have major issues to deal with. We read the first chapter of Romans and at the end it says about worshiping the image of man and turning to gay sex. Our leader said it was one of the chapters they don’t usually read in church because it deals with difficult issues but he was deffinitely anti gay and it’s left me wondering whether I am choosing to be gay or was created gay.

I can think back to when I was much younger an I used to fantasize about boys. So I’m fairly sure I’ve been like this for most if not all of my life it’s not that I just hit puberty and thought hey boys are cuter than girls.

Worshiping the image of man was another biggy. It is a generally accepted fact that all the boys in our group have problems with internet porn. We went to a weekend earlier this year part of which dealt with the issue. They got everyone in the place on their feet and then told us to sit down if we had never looked at porn on the internet. Then they said to sit down if we hadn’t looked at porn in the last month. Pretty much every boy and some of the girls were still on their feet and we all prayed together but it didn’t stop me looking since. So I know that all the guys at church are looking at online porn just the same as me. Well, okay, maybe not the same images I’m looking at, but all the same we’re all at it and that was what it meant in the Bible about worshiping the image of man at least thats my belief.

Our leader didn’t focus on this though, he was all for condeming gays. Managed to argue agains him without announcing that I was one of the ones he was targeting. You see the passage doesn’t just stop at gays it goes on about other sins and I said there would be other people who would be equally uncomfortable with this because we’re none of us perfect and we all sin. But then the last line says we know we shouldn’t do these things but we still do them and we approve of others who do them too.

I don’t want to go on about religion. I know it can cause lots of bad feeling. Here’s where my church stands on gay relationships. It’s okay to be gay but not to have gay sex. So I’m alright with God just as long as I don’t go doing anything. Hey, if I was a catholic I’d be goin to hell for some of the things I think about. It’s about love the sinner but hate the sin as our leader put it. But is it okay for me to love another boy and by this I don’t mean get into their pants, I mean be concerned for them, love them like a hetro couple?

Been reading Steevo’s comments, of which there are quite a few and thanx Steevo for reading my blog and leaving your comments. He sez I need to get over the guilt of looking at cocks and wanking. Now is that what I need or is Steevo doing what the Bible says and approving of others and me doing things I/we know we shouldn’t do? That God man sure don;t make life simple.

Bare all

Sorry I didn’t write anything yesterday. It was hot and sunny and I hit the beach. My mum’s taken us to the sand dunes and it’s a great place to play but I also noticed that it attracts quite a few guys and it’s quite obviously a gay pick up spot. I’ve been before and seen people in the nude although it’s not officially a naturist beach. Went yesterday on my own. Put on my shorts and a tee shirt and went off on my bike. Had a bit of a walk around to find somewhere to sunbathe, and to check out the talent. Mostly old blokes looking shifty either alone or with another guy. More naked guys but no young ones. I found a spot that was very close to the beach but hidden from view and stripped down to my undies. I’d put on a pair of navy briefs. I don’t usually go for briefs but I look good in them and thought they looked like speedos. Eventually plucked up the courage to go naked. Never tried before and I was scared in case I got caught. Spent a little while in the nude then put my shorts back on and went for another stroll through the dunes. Saw a few guys taking a look at me but none I fancies and besides I would have been too scared to do anything with them but it was quite exciting all the same. I stopped near where there were two couples together. They were talking quite loud and were joking about having sex in the sand. One of the girls had her hand in the guys trunks and was playing with him and said about getting sand in the hole at the end. I got a boner and when I got back on my bike I felt a little squirt come in my undies. First time ever that’s happened without me touching it. I love the summer, except today because it’s raining. Think we’re going away either next week or the week after. Not booked anywhere but my mum’s talking about going to Wales. We go every year. Won’t get to blog again til Monday cos we’re out tomorrow too. If we go away it’ll be a week before I come back. Can’t believe how many followers I have now. Thanks everyone for adding me and thanks Bob for getting so many people to stop by and say hello and K for giving me a plug on his blog. U guys r the best.

Big deal

I am so pleased because today I have my first follower. I know, big deal I here you say, well for me it is. Had a boring day today, spent most of it staring at a pc screen. Sorry to disappoint my reader if you were expecting excitement. Discovered two new blogs to read and had chat with K online for the first time which has also made me happy.